One of my biggest fears with my blogging is that it will turn into some sort of social avenue for me. Not an avenue, I guess, but more like a lifestyle. Or maybe a copout for reality.
I can see where it would be very easy to get carried away with blogs, facebook, and twitter. I feel like I can be lost for an hour or so in this alternate universe of internet and not even realize it. When I start to realize that I'm even remotely sad that I don't have comments on any of my posting God gives me a swift kick in the pants. Am I so prideful that I would actually experience any kind of emotions attached to others reactions to what I write about my life and my child? Wow. Wow. wow. wow. Am I that important? Are my thoughts that provoking?
Have social interactions and community and fellowship been substitutd for a cyber version of reality? Do I make subtle hints at people in my blog but I'm too cowardly to talk about it face to face? Am I keeping up on my internet postings but not pursuing fellowship and accountability in real life? Is my blog just a way for me to show everyone how awesome I am and how perfect my life and my family are? Am I coming to my computer on a daily basis before I am coming to the throne of my God? Am I writing more about God than actively seeking Him? I am embarrassed to say...yes...to some of the questions above...and sometimes to most of the others. And no to the one about God.
Being a mom that stays at home, I fully understand how confining it can be to have a napping child or one that is about to or needs this that and the other thing. And I love being able to catch up with family and friends and to feel like I'm part of the lives of those that live so far away. I am not against blogging or the internet. Clearly. I just really pray that I don't use my blog for anything other than I've intended...to glorify the Lord...to share what He is doing in my heart and my home. And what He is doing it with my heart right now is just breaking it over my sins of selfishness and pride.
The internet is such an opportunity to "so shine our light before men." Not an opportunity to shine myself. Lord I'm sorry that I haven't seen it before...
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wow. that is so very honest...thank you for being transparent and also making very valid points...hopefully causing all those who read this to look closely at what they write and why. love you rach
I often feel the same way. It's such a fine line and one that you can so easily get caught up in. You have always been so honest and I love that. I do love seeing where God is taking you and your family - so try to update every now and then. :)
Thanks for that, Rach! I have been spending WAYYY to much time on the internet wasting precious minutes and hours surfing instead of doing things that matter. I think I will take a few of your questions and journal them today/tonight sometime and pour over them in prayer and then rethink my blogging/twitter/facebooking/internet surfing etc. THANK!
Can't wait to see you Rach! I need a little time with my dear friend whom God has blessed with discernment and an ability to communicate the truth in love. I have missed having your input in my life!! Thanks for sharing your heart.
pretty sweet thoughts. i think it's all about your heart, right?
I love this post! God has been talking to me about that as well. So glad I ventured over to your blog to read this... great words of both encouragement and truth!
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